BlackRoseMask

I feel worthless, useless. A pest, a weight, ruining everything. I feel broken, shattered, like glass. I have no hope, no light. Feeling like running away. From everything that curses me. I don't feel like living with this anymore. I feel like falling, endlessly, into the ocean. Under the waves, choking, drowning. Where I try to lift my hands up. My body is heavy, my mind is scrambled. I don't think normally anymore. The words don't have a proper sentence. I listen to their poison lies, over and over. I can't do much else, it's the only thing in my head. I've wished and worked hard. To no avail have my efforts been. So I suff

Walking down the street, I feel everyones eyes on me. Slowly I speed up to avoid their nasty glares, fearing that I wont be able to break free. Anxiety spreading quickly through my body, making me feel like a bird locked in a cage. My heart pounding rapidly against my chest, so hard that I feel like I could collapse. Trying to escape the crowd thats laughing at me, I cant seem to find a way out. Tears stream down my face as the people point at me, my head is spinning trying to proccese it all. Everyone in the crowd is taking their turn verbally attacking me, why can't they leave me be don't they see that I'm filled with missery

My eyes rip free The tears running down my cheeks I've nowhere to run I'm all alone Why can't you see The only thing left Is silence My eyes are closed My screams are gone All that's left of me Is tears I've tried to run But its caught up No matter where I go Or what I do My life catches up to me

its not that i am mean, or cruel even though i am, a bit. i am just so frightened that you will disappear. im talking about all of you about everything about all things rocks, the sky asphalt, steel fire, pearls blood, and bone all might dissolve like memories from a dream the fear is crushing taste could be burned away and sight imprisoned motion concludes and potential energy is expended but existence is eternal what is shall be a rose is a rose is matter and energy neither created nor destroyed everything exists it won't just go bloop and disappear forever right? but i fear it- (the fear it scratches at

It begins with a melancholy feeling deep inside my soul. Something pushes it deeper until I can't handle it anymore. I stop breathing for a few seconds. My chest heaves and my lungs take in a deep, ragged breath. They get addicted to these sharp stings. I start to hyperventillate. I rock forward. I rock backward. I rock forward and backward and forward and backward. I rock. I rock. I pull my hair down. I smooth it out. I smooth my hair and rock forward and backward and heave in another ragged breath. One tear builds up in each eye until they decide to take the plunge down my cheeks. The right tear falls onto my chest with a

I'm so sorry But i can't take it anymore love me, hate me.. My eyes are filled with tears and my heart is drenched in ice there's one thing that makes me feel aside from yor voice and as i drag the blade across my now painless wrist I know somewere deep inside im hoping you'll notice Realize im bleeding Over you That you'll come save me.. But i know.. You'll never pull me back up no.. You'll shove me back farther and i... wish i could see your eyes one last time Pray to something that your heart weren't empty My love is meaningless to you even though.. i gave everyting to you I should have known.. Im nothing... May

I am getting so close Feelin' the need to overdose It really gives me a scare Know I must not travel there A knife that I am gripping tight An urge I always have to fight Laughter ringing in my ears Constantly holding back my tears Pain follows me when I'm awake Not much sleep that I do not fake Writing is my only cure Lessening the pain so that I can endure

I'd rather you be happy I'd rather you have fun I'd rather stay silent Than admit my distaste I'd rather you feel better I'd rather you not know me Because, in truth, I hate this It's not fun, and it's all for you But I'd rather not say that I'd rather just keep silent Because I want you to be happy I don't want to be selfish

Let me do this for you Let me be there Let me make you happy Let me fake my emotions Let me stay quiet Let me do this for me Let me love you Let me watch you Let me hurt myself Let me be emotionless Let me do this for them Let me pretend I don't hurt Let me say I'm alright Let me eat without a lecture Let me grieve Let me do this for Him Let me scream at nothing Let me talk to the air Let me have my fits Let me cry alone Just let me do this Because it's all I have left now